Maybe I am Stingy

Recently, I've got a feedback from a she-so-called
good friend of hers, "Don't be so kiam siap (stingy)"
The truth is... I'm stingy.

How stingy I am? I go for mamak instead of
some classy shop. I go into franchise fast food
like once in a month. I go for stock up once a month.
I called you to see if you could join us. I volunteer to
ride out and be your company when you wanted to
buy a guitar.. Spent my time(gold) to comfort you
when you are down....

Whoa... I'm so stingy.....
I totally accept that you said that I was rude
because I hung you up, but with a "stingy".
You are so right... I'm so stingy...

And I guess I'm not trustworthy as well...
A good friend of mine is actually from time to
time checking on me whether or not I am
hanging out with his ex... hahaha... So Ironic!
He is my buddy... BUDDY...

Now I realized that, all of these so-called
buddy or good friends, aren't any close
to the actual meaning of the term....

I think I would have to buy a new dictionary then.
Or Should I write myself a dictionary?
I will define stingy, good friends and buddy for my life.
Anyway, I can only speak here. Why? Because none of
them would actually see or read this... Like I said
Nobody can handle the truth... If I confront them, in the
end, it would be like a declaring war... Why not
I just humor them by just swallow down my words
and shout here...

All is well.. All is well... D, I really need your piece of mind.
What should I do in order to catch up with you? You
are always good in this, aren't you? I miss you...